Take action in your life and you will be satisfied and happy in your life!

Wow I had such an amazing time in NY while I was there with my husband. My husband is from Queens. There is just an amazing feel there. We went to Manhattan almost every day and walked for at least three hours every day. I can see why most of the women there are so skinny hehe. While we were there I was able to meet some pretty famous producers and DJs and give them my album which was really exciting. NY has so many famous musicians just at your finger tips and its almost like people take it for granted there. I would love to live in Queens or Manhattan in the future when I make it in the music business hehe. I'd love to get a big flat in Soho or Tribecca.

Ever since I had a class last night in San Jose and they asked what are some areas in your life where you are not feeling satisified and complete? I realized what some of these things are and I have a new commitement to really attack those things and to make things happen this year. I have a huge commitment in making things happen. Its funny because while I was in NY my husband's best friend told my husband that I am a completely different woman since the last time he saw me which was last year. Its all because I'm not angry or resigned about my life because instead of waiting for things to happen to me I'm in action and doing them now! I'm happy. My teacher last night challenged us to work on these areas in our life and create break throughs. I also realized last night that all the reasons of why we tell ourselves why something is not possible are made up and are just part of our fantasy. They are what holds us back from achieving a lot in our lives. After seeing the many miracles that I've experienced in my life this year I've realized that anything is possible in life if you just take a stand for your life.

I've had a blast in NY but I'm ready to get back home to Cali!

Dude i'm so tired right now. We've been walking for like two to three hours every day in Manhattan. My legs and hips are really sore. I went to the Guggenheim museum today in Manhattan and was pretty dissapointed. The exhibitions there were lame. It was the kind of art where I was like what? I dont get it. Anyways so I kinda feel it was a waste of thirty six bucks.

I had a great time last night going to the club APT last night and I got to meet Prince Paul who has worked with Jay Z, Queen Latifah, De La Soul and so many other people. Supposedly hes good friends with Chris Rock and produced a bunch of music for him. Hes working on a childerens album right now which I think is kinda interesting. He was super chill and down to earth which was really cool. I gave him my album and he said that he would get back to me and give me feed back on it. So hopefully he does get back to me...and he likes it. Its crazy how many famous people are accessible here in NY. The weird part is how New Yorkers dont take advantage of that. Its like they take it for granted. Its weird. Maybe its because they dont really care that they are famous and they are just unphased about it all? Who knows! But for me I'm like dude lets network and I dont get intimdated with talking to people even if they are famous. At the end of the day they are just people and they often face many similar problems as us.

I'm going back home to California on Thursday and am excited to come home. I miss being in my own bed and being at home. I really miss my animals too hehe. My cats are going to be so needy when I get home.

I really do love New York though. If I ever moved here I'd probably live in Kui Gardens in Queens its so nice. Its full of really nice homes that look like Palo Alto. All of the homes are super old and full of charachter. Not only that but they are much cheaper than homes in California. Prices for California homes are crazy. Plus its only thirty minutes from Manhattan. I'm going to start doing voice overs and teaching art classes in 2009. I'm so motivated with getting my band together and start gigging as well.

I think when you see that anything is possible in life it really changes your thinking. Its interesting because I am seeing some people that have kinda given up on their lives and they are resigned and cynical. Its so sad for me to see people like that. Now that I see that anything is possible....I'm taking that into the rest of my life. Other people have commented at how I'm completely a different person now. I haven't seen any of my husband's friends for a year now. This year has been really tough but instead of getting over whelmed by things I have learned from my mistakes and I have really progressed.

Going to NY and reflecting on my Grandpa's funeral that happened today...

Well today I'm going to NY and I'm going out there to be with family but I'll also be going out there to network with some people in the music business. I'm excited to make new connections and to meet with new people. I'm always excited to be in new places and to experience new things.

On a more somber note...today was my grandpa's funeral and even though it was a sad experience and I cried quite a bit it was great to see a bunch of family and cousins here that helped support each other. Its always moments like these that make us reflect on who we are and what we have become. This is my fathers father so he essentially started this whole lineage! If it wasn't for him I would not be here. He raised four amazing sons that are still living here and carrying on his legacy. He can now live with his wife who passed away six months ago. I'm not sure who reads these blogs but I hope they make you think about how important family is...something that touched me today was how they shared about how my grandpa felt about how you had to leave fear behind in your life and that you just had to live life and you just had to be! I have learned so much about that this year! I have worked so hard on my album...and I plan on continuing to work so hard still to achieve more and more. I have so many dreams and mile stones that I want to achieve in the music industry. I want to do it so that my stories and messages can touch other peoples lives! My grandpa was a story teller and an amazing writer and this gift was passed on to me but the only difference is I'm a song writer. Anyways instead of being sad I'm happy because he really did live an amazing life and we all have so much to look forward to in life. He left behind an amazing family. He struggled a lot in his life but he over came a lot of things. What an example he was to all of us.

Yeah I'm on the radio stations!

Wow I just found out that someone that I sent a press kit to in NY loved my album so much that he decided to play my album on his radio station today. He plays his radio station every Sunday in NY. Geraldine Convento who has acted as my A&R for my whole album and my career so far put me in contact with John who puts on his radio station his name is John Brunelli and he puts on a radio station called Breaktime Radio which is called Orchid Milk. He mentioned that my album is really soulful. I have been so blessed to be put in contact with such amazing people who have believed in my music. I wrote my music with such an open heart in the spirit with wanting to help people and I think it is translating that to other people who are listening to it. I guess it is karma so good things are coming my way. I am not taking it for granted by any means. I feel like I am in a complete trance to be honest. The radio station is 90.5 and it will be at 7pm-10pm NY time and at 4pm-7pm CA time. Please tune in to hear my music on the radio station! This is the first time that it will be played on a radio station! It has only been two weeks and already it is on a radio station...this is pretty amazing!

I will be featured on another radio station here in California in January and when I know the exact date and the radio station I will let you all know so you can tune in and listen.

This just shows...that anything is possible if you believe it is! I'm going to keep moving forward with everything else in my music career. Other things that I plan on doing this year are taking voice over classes so that I can do voice overs for commercials and for movies and for anything else that comes my way. I also would like to write music and jingles for commericals and for movies and for other artists. The sky is the limit and I frankly found something that I'm really good at. So now I just need to find how I can get into these other industries and not accept no for an answer and be fearless and unstoppable just like I was this past year in making my album. Someone told me recently that I can just decide that I can just chalk my album up as something that I did for experience...um NO. I dont play that way. I'm playing all out. If you think that way you will only fail. The way you think is the way you will become. Anyways the fact that I'm already on the radio stations already tells me that I'm on the right course...

Wow I just had an amazing experience this lady just messaged me and made me realize why I do music...

Wow that was so cool someone just sent me a message who lost a son and somehow she read that I wrote a song called My Baby My Child that was written specifically about that. I haven't lost a child and I have never had a child but somehow that song just came to me. This is why I'm a songwriter and this is why I do music. I do it for others. I do it to to heal others. I've had others tell me recently that they listen to it over and over again. Someone that had their boyfriend in jail told me that she listened to it in one day 20 times because in one line I sing "Why can't they set you free it'd mean so much to me if they'd set you free it'd mean so much to me." Now this could mean to a mother why can't they just give you back to me why can't they police find your body? But it could also mean to a mother or to a lover why can't they get you out of jail? See it has a broad meaning and thats what I wanted. Music is so powerful. Words are so powerful. Again this is why I do music. Its bigger than I am. This is why I want to start performing. Someone told me recently that when someone gives themself totally to the audience and is authentic it means a lot and has a huge effect on others. I want to do that. What she said had a huge effect on me. I already do that in my words and my music. I want to do that in my performances. I can't hold back in that. Whether I become famous or not this is my purpose for doing music. I think if I stay true to this I will do the best I can. Anyways that experience really just touched me. I hope she finds healing in some way or another. Wow keep those comments coming. That just really made me realize why I do this!

Everyone has their own unique gifts and I plan on using mine to the best ability to bless others

I just saw The Secret Life of Bees today with my mom and it reminded me that we all have our own paths in life. We all have our own gifts and as my dad said to me on Thanksgiving what life is about is playing all out in life and using your gifts to the best of your ability. I am me. I am not someone else. I am Amy. I was given my own unique talents and gifts for a reason and if we never try we will never try. I would rather try and give it my all then never know if it was possible.

I always knew that I had a gift of feeling deeply. I think God gave me this gift to use this in my song writing. I wrote this song My Baby My Child and some people have asked me why I wrote it and I have never experienced loosing a child but for some reason it spoke to me. It can be interpreted in so many ways. Loosing a child emotionally. Loosing a child spiritually. Loosing a child physically. Loosing your loved one and seeing them in jail. In the song it says why can't they set you free. These are gifts I plan on using to bless others.

Again we were all born into this life to bless others with different things. Some can bless others with the ability to take care of others. Some have the ability to be great mothers. Some have the ability to love with a great capacity. Some have the ability to dance really well. You get the point. If we compare ourself to others then we are coveting what other people have and that is actually a commandment that God has said that we shouldn't do. My dad was saying to me the other day...that if someone said I want to be like Von and do what he did for a living. They would be a failure because no one can be exactly like me and hes right. Just like no one can write songs like me. Why even try and compare ourselves then? Lets just be happy for other people when they share themselves and when they have success in their lives? Thats what life is about.

At the same point though if people close around me are not happy for me thats ok. That wont make me stop doing what I'm doing and it wont make me angry. Some people have a hard time being happy for other people when they succeed. And honestly some people doubt if something is possible. Some people like to kill possibility and they have a hard time seeing that something might actually work out long term. Thats a really sad state to live in. If you think like that then how can you ever succeed at anything why even try anything then? Literally. I used to question everything and it made me stop doing things but I dont do that anymore I just keep moving. Anyways these are some things to think about. Not everyone will be happy when you succeed but thats ok. Just keep moving and doing your thing. The people who see you as bigger than you are are the ones who are your true friends and who I keep by my side. Those are my true friends.